I write now, hours after my patience was really put into a test.
I've mentioned in my previous blog that my second nursery class has been really hyper these days, but their hyper-activity has never really challenged me, not until this afternoon.
Two of my students were really restless and quite violent awhile ago, well, they've always been extra naughty since I began handling them, but I would always get to talk to them and settle things with them. This afternoon, it seems like they didnt mind what I was telling them, it also seems like they were really testing to how long I could hold unto my patience..

The worst thing about it was that the other kids were imitating them too, some didnt mind that I was there in front of them, while only a few bothered to listen. Well, it's really one of those days that a teacher like me would really have to go through at least once in her teaching career..
Before I said goodbye to them, I told them, kids, i do not think you are listening to me anymore. Do you want that I leave now and say goodbye and you will not see me anymore? I will just tell yaya julie to teach you. Would u want that? no more teacher tanya?... I was trying my best to psyche, testing them as well if my presence really mattered to them at all...
They answered, No teacher..We dont want to see you go...
Awwh...my heart melted..i wanted to break down and cry..when I heard them say that...It means that at least, just at least in some way, I mattered to them and that they know that I care deeply for them....

After my class, my co-teacher Joy, talked to me and asked, Gosh tanya ang haba ng pisi mo..grabe ka.. then she came running to the other teachers telling them of what just happened in my class, of how hyper they've been to the extremes...

True, patience is a virtue and its really one of the qualities that I am thankful that God has gifted me with. I believe that it was only through God's grace that I am as this patient. No wonder I dont mind being stuck in traffic, or waiting when a friend is late during a meeting or even listening when a friend rants about her life and other silly issues. The daily experiences I have which always puts my patience to a test are then transcended into a deeper level, specifically, awaiting God's perfect plan for me in my life- whether I await His plans for my career, or even when my God's best will finally come along..

Today's incidence really made me see how I have changed through the years, more importantly how God has transformed me to become mor elike him each day..I must say that everyday, it is a process of being awakened to your senses, to be renewed daily into a woman whose character is a lady worth pursuing.:)

I am currently listening to: BossaNova Cd, (this cd really calms me...:)

I am currently reading: The warrior of light, Strong women soft hearts, boy meets girl, women on a journey

I am currently: Drinking my favorite cup of tea: Twinings apple cinnamon and raisin tea.. it's really really good:) yummy try it

Tanya Wrote On The Sand At 1:13 AM
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